my feeling at the moment? down. i should be there but someone else is taking my place. i thought i'm over it but then a news that i should be happy about is not making me feels better at all. all the past came back to me. serabot! i know he's better than me but it's depressing when i'm thinking that i should be there, in his place sometime ago. i went through the same path as him but the outcomes were different & now i feels like i'm being dump in the trash. like what Andy said to Woody, Buzz, Jessy, & the rest "They're just a junk!" so do I.
i know i need to move on and show them what i got like i did few years ago. those years were superb. i cannot remember how i did that to get to the top. can't remember at all. i need help here.
i guess i just need motivatioval words for my birthday present. to be hanged on the wall so that i can read them everyday. stupid i know but i think this gonna work.
ok back to sleep.
ITU SAJA.
